No more subtraction

So, I read today two things that had me thinking a bit about how I am feeling and reacting to this surgery. The first thing that impacted me only took a second to read...three little words...

Walk By Faith

Hmph! Why am I not walking by faith? Why am I being such a 'Peter'. Can't I see that the Lord is on my side with all this pain? I hate it when I wallow and forget that I have a God that is sovereign and good and has a plan for my life. I hate it when I can't gain the greater perspective and see that this journey is part of the bigger picture for me. That I have something to gain from this pain. Why do I not walk by faith? I need to believe in my Lord, that He is protecting me and teaching me right now, right this very moment. Somewhere deep inside me, I know that even though I feel like I am in a dark place all alone, I am not. He is with me. Even in my physical pain. Walk By Faith. Easier said than done. But I will continue to try.

The second thing I read today was living by addition and not by subtraction. I read that in a "Costco Connection" mailer of all places. It was an article by Michael J. Fox and how he is coping day to day with his battle with Parkinson's Disease. Parkinson's Disease for crying out loud. And he still has the most positive optimistic attitude. Seriously. He mentioned that he refuses to live life with his disease by counting what PD has subtracted. He only looks at what PD had added to his journey. Incredible.

So who am I ? How can I sit here and complain about my little struggles when there are people like him who refuse to? So, I thought...ok Kathi, lets think about what this pain has added to your life the last two weeks. Focus on the positive addition instead of the subtraction.
So here goes...

I don't have to cook! Fantastic meals by wonderful people have been delivered.
I don't have to clean and I don't really care that there is dust. That is liberating!
I have time to snap a million pictures of the kids.
I have learned to be a pro at working the DVR.
I have had the time to read books and magazines without guilt.
I have trusted my husband to run the show and he pretty much has it together around here. He is awesome.
I haven't had to fill up the car or think about car maintenance at all
I haven't done laundry in two weeks
I have been around for all of Jacks giggles and laughter (when I am awake)
Sydney has been able to hang out with great friends while I have been resting
I have discovered some great old movies and new network shows I have never watched
I now know the recipe to Matzo Ball soup and I dying to make it. Thank you Food Network
I get to see my husband care for our children with love and gentleness.
I have taken joy in seeing what Adam dresses Jack up in everyday. Adam's style is never dull.
I have looked forward to the mail for the get well cards and the newest Netflix DVD.
I have been able to nap anytime I have wanted to.

I have been able to witness the kindness and compassion of our friends and family. People are really amazing and willing to help. It just makes my heart sing.

Those are only a few things that I have been blessed with during this journey. The additions...
So much better than the subtractions!